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| Me and Ginger, My Other Mother!! |
This morning I woke up and looked in the mirror and once
again wonder what happened to the girl I once knew. Where did she go? How is it
that she left so quickly? Morning time usually means swollen puffy eyes, a very
paleface and some old woman looking back. I am not sure just what issue is
attributed what, but I know that my Leukemia, my Sprycel and my near crippling
side effects from the antibiotic Cipro are all to blame. Yes, I will concede
that there is also the matter of two, calendar years to throw into the mix, but
come on; I went to sleep looking and feeling like the person I have known my
entire life and woke up looking and feeling like someone else.
I suppose that since it has only been a year that I was
diagnosed with CML, and only two years since the Cipro poisoning, I still have moments
of remembering who I was; and I must admit, I miss that person! I miss her
tons, she was the girl that was like the Energizer Bunny; always on the go,
full of energy and life and rarely ran out of steam. She was the girl that
never got sick and could always just get up and go on a moment’s notice.
She didn’t have to remember to take meds every day and have
to check her medical appointments before making plans. It never occurred to her
that if she made plans, which she would not be able to follow through. The only
thing that she ever worried about was if her children and grandchildren were
healthy, happy and safe and how the rest of her immediate family was coping
with their misfortunes. She lived every day without worrying about how she
would feel the next day and if she had done too much that day, and would feel
like crap the next. Basically I suppose, despite some difficult and tragic life
experiences, you could say that she was a lucky girl.
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