I am beginning to realize that no matter how many birthdays that we have celebrated; our inner being remains the same. Our paths may change but the core of who we are does not. As we age, I believe that our convictions become stronger, and our desire to fulfill our journey may strengthen, but deep down inside, we still have the same hopes and dreams, fears and desires. We still have a strong will to live our life, and often, the only thing standing in our way, is the one thing that invariably DOES change; our bodies!
Those daggone things that carry around our very beings, while fulfilling our lives, begin to wear down! They get old and tired and sometimes diseased. We abuse them and often push them to the brink, and wonder why they look and feel so old! Sometimes we do pamper and protect them, feed them well and allow them the rest they need, but more often than not, we abuse them.
So, I am going to start being a better keeper of my body; I am not entirely sure where or how to start, because I currently DO eat well, am extremely mindful of any overindulgence, and try to exercise, when able. I have found that living with a chronic cancer makes all of the things that my mind “wants” to do much more difficult.
I need to find a way to accept my limitations while still being able to live my “best” life; this is a great challenge. I always have hopes of grandeur, and maybe that is one of my problems, maybe I need to really accept the limitations and set new goals. Dancing is probably the most difficult arena in which to accept my limitations; in my head, I am able to dance as well as, and for as long as I used to. The fact of the matter is; that simply is no longer the case. I need to accept the fact that “The Old Gray Mare, She Ain’t What She Used To Be!” and move on!
So, maybe if I put this down in writing, I will actually stick to my guns! I am going to make small goals, ones that I CAN fulfill, ones that are not so overwhelming that I cannot imagine accomplishing them on a daily basis; so here goes:
1. I will walk, continuously, a minimum of 20 minutes per day.
2. I will only eat three peppermint patties a day!
How is that for a start? I will continue to search for other ways that I can improve my overall health and will keep you posted.
But for now, I want to say that I have had a fabulous 55 years on this planet; I, like everyone have experienced the highest of highs and lowest of lows and feel extremely blessed to still be alive. Thus far I would say that “I have had a great life” and am looking forward to what the future holds.
I want to thank all of you that sent special birthday wishes and let you know that each one of them touched a special place in my heart. Birthdays are a blessing and each and every one should be celebrated!