unpleasantness. It has only been three days since I began taking an increased amount of Sprycel. I went from 70 mg a day to 100 mg a day. I was on 100 mg a day for the better part of my three year CML journey, but have been on a reduced dose for the past six months. Apparently my CML took the decrease and ran with it; my PCR took a leap. I have increased the Sprycel and will be rechecking my PCR in two months. Wouldn't it be so cool if there was a lab error?
Anyway, I finally realized that my weepiness and wanting to crawl into a corner and cry, is not the result of the bad news; it is the result of the increased Sprycel. I forgot that Sprycel make me sad! Not really sad in a boo-hoo, feeling sorry for myself kind of way, but sad in a still seeing the flowers, but through a gray cloud sort of way.
Sprycel has a way of dampening my spirits and masking my true, joyful self. I know that this may seem strange, but it is real and now that I have remembered this feeling, I can stop wondering “what is wrong with me!?”
So, on that note, I am changing my Theme Song back to: “You Can’t Always Get What You Wa--ant!”, cause right now I guess I am “Getting what I need!”
What is your theme song?