I keep looking in the mirror and saying, “I have Leukemia”, “I have cancer” and the person looking back at me keeps saying, “That’s impossible”, “It just can’t be”, “I’ve got way too much to do”. Maybe living in a state of quasi denial is a good thing, I am not sure! Don’t get me wrong, I know that it is true; I am doing everything that my doctor tells me to do, and am researching like crazy!
I must admit that I am more tired than usual and I have to keep reminding myself that this is my “normal” for right now. Resting has never been one of my finer attributes. It is so difficult when you heart and brain say GO! And your body says NO!
Of course I spend a fair amount of time wondering and pondering just what all of this means. I am sure that there is a lesson here and I really want to learn it quickly. I keep saying to the guy upstairs, “Could you please speak louder and clearer, because I’m not hearing you….yet!” It is amazing to me just how quickly life can change. I’ve been privy to it before and I am now privy to it again. Just how does one wake up with Leukemia?
Feel free to join me on my journey, Dancing My Way Through Leukemia.