Monday, May 2, 2016

Getting Older is a Privilege; Not a Punishment!!

My parents; the ones who gave me life!
Today is my 57th birthday; it is the first time that I have spent my birthday in tears. My tears are happy and sad tears; the flood-gates opened last night, shortly after midnight. My online crochet buddy wished me a Happy Birthday........the only other person that used to wish me Happy Birthday, precisely at midnight was my mother; my friend and I decided that she was my mother's messenger this year.

It never really occurred to me that I would miss that call, as much as I did. My mother would always say, "Happy Birthday my sweet, precious baby girl, X amount of years ago you came into my life, and you have filled my heart with joy ever since. I love you so much, you know that I do, right?"
Of course, I would always say, "Yes, Mom, I know you love me and I love you, too. Thank you for bringing me into this world, you deserve the birthday wishes today; you are the one that did all of the work!" So, so sweet and caring she always was; so needless to say, I am missing her terribly, today.

That emotional start to my birthday did not end; waking to all of the sweet birthday wishes from so, so many just continued my journey down the happy, sappy Birthday Road. The Internet may be a lot of things, some good, some bad,  but one special thing that it is, is a connection to so very many, that you would otherwise never be able to connect to. I cannot thank each and every one of you well wishers enough, for all of the kind words and wishes.

My Kiddos!
That being said, I look back at all of the years I dreaded "getting older" and I realize how very foolish I was; growing old is not a punishment, it is a privilege. A privilege that I no longer wish, did not arrive so quickly, year after year. Growing old is the greatest gift EVER!

Do I wish that my body still performed as my mind thinks it should? Hell Yeah!! Do I wish that I could take my life lessons back to a younger me and avoid some of the mistakes that I made? Sometimes. Do I wish that I could start all over, as a child, a teenager or a young adult? Heck NO!

What I do wish for, is that I will continue to grow older and wiser, and that I will be around for a very, very long time; cherishing my family, my friends and my life with every single bit of gusto that I can muster.

The Grands and Hubs!
That I will be able to continue to share my experience of living with a chronic cancer to all that I am able, and that I can continue to share my joy of living, to all I meet.

From the bottom of my heart, I thank each and every single person that enriches my life, not only today, my birthday, but every single day in between, too!

Today, is a GREAT DAY; tears and all!!

Son, Daughter  in  Love and Fam!!


  1. Brilliant, beautiful post. You have a beautiful family!
    Elisha x

  2. I was diagnosed this past Monday, just 1 week after my 38th birthday. I start Sprycel on Friday. My background is in oncology nursing, and based off of my labs, I diagnosed CML a month before my PCR-ABL came back positive. That said, I've had plenty of time to research the good,bad,and the ugly. At this point, I'm just focusing on being around to see my kids grow up. I have been looking for a good group of people to connect with, and any blog/website recommendations would be welcomed. TIA, Celeste

  3. Hey Celest,
    So sorry that you have joined our CML group....there will be many ups and downs and quite a learning curb, but if you go back to the first posts of this blog, you may find it helpful!
    Blessing on your journey,


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